I laid in my bed on the Phantom. Tomorrow was the big day: infiltrate the hideout, steal isotope-5, and save the Empire. Then the team and I will… Go our separate ways? Go on to do more missions for the Empire? If that meant being with Cytharat more…
After we got back, Katha Niar talked all of our ears off. I paid attention of course, as she is quite the lady in terms of doing her job. My eyes glanced at Cytharat on occasion. Although he stood stoically, he never once looked at me. Unfortunately he walked away before we could talk again… Said he had to mediate before tomorrow. Hopefully that wasn’t what he dubbed trying to avoid me.
I sighed and allowed myself drift off to sleep. I then was awoken a bit suddenly by a knock at the door. I said, “What the… HK-51, this had better be good, ” with a yawn.
A muffled voice said, “Commander… I mean Crimsèn?”
Since I didn’t recognize the voice at first, I instinctively reached for the blaster I keep with me. I said, “Yes, who is this? I’m not the most decent… ”
“Neither am I,” the voice replied, “But I’m sure you wouldn’t be against being indecent in front of me. ”
I was in shock. I replied shyly, “Cytharat??”
The voice replied, “Yes… May i enter? Would you prefer to remain alone?”
“No,” I replied quickly, “please, come in! ”
I reached over to turn on the light and I tried to pull the covers up around me, as my underwear is small.
Cytharat came in with a simple robe, that he slowly slid off to show well muscled male wearing grey boxers underneath. I blinked at the sight and said without thinking, “You’re beautiful. But I’m not sure… What do you want?”
Cytharat smiled shyly as he crawled into bed next to me. He looked at me and said, “You’re beautiful as well… I’m not sure what I wanted coming here besides your company.”
I smiled before turning the lights off and pulling him against my chest. “You’re more than welcome to come over. But so soon?”
Cytharat nodded. “Yes,” he said, “I must admit I was hesitant… being alone can be hollow.”
I sighed with relief- I’m not the only one nervous! I laid us both down. “I’m… Shit… I don’t know what to say now… ”
Cytharat interjected: “No need for many words when just a few will do.”
“But I’m a Cipher,” I said with a sigh, “talking should be one my strongest points.”
“I thought you were good at hunting for something… Or someone and making them yours?”
Was that an observation or was he talking about my pursuit of him? Have I caught him? I couldn’t be sure as hunting is a trait of my people. How about I focus on him, and slowing my breathing, instead? In doing so, I notice things more: my happiness at having him against me, my nervousness about tomorrow…
Cytharat spoke, “You’re meditating Crimsèn.”
I replied, “I am?”
He nodded and said, “Though it will strengthen you more if you focused on more intense emotions such as anger, passion. Surely there must be something… ”
I blurted without thinking, “I’m falling in love with you. I can focus on that.”
Cytharat nods as he leans in closer. “Yes, you can focus on that. ”
“Though I’d rather focus on you…”
I got cut off because it was then he kissed me. My eyes slowly slid shut. I pressed back gently, and pulled him against me.
He pulled away and said, “Now, you can focus on both.”
I whispered, “That is cruel,” I said, “but it does help and I can feel myself becoming empowered. I lightly kissed his forehead as we continued to meditate together.
Eventually he said, “We have been at this for a few hours. Good… Tomorrow we shall be able to face anything. Hold onto it and I’ll have more for you tomorrow.”
I nodded simply as he laid his down and fell asleep.
I fell asleep eventaully, but not before my mind settled a bit. Cytharat came, and he sought me out! He fell asleep in my arms! His lips, oh those beautiful lips against my own… I fell asleep eventually, eager for what tomorrow would bring.